No Army Life for Me

I just got an email from the Canadian Armed Forces:

Thank you for forwarding your audition for a position as a musician in the regular force of the Canadian Forces. Unfortunately, after having reviewed all of the applicants for the available positions, you will not be invited to the next phase of the audition.

It’s a no.  I think I totally live in a bubble — I thought for sure I was gonna be invited at least to the second phase.  Nick Atkinson had warned me that the level of playing for the armed forces had really climbed since his entrance years ago.  Noways too, it seems that it’s nothing for high school tubists to be playing the RVW.

I was really starting to dream up life possibilities being posted with the band in Ottawa.  Being semi-close to home and much closer to my family.  This has been on my mind a lot since my Mom’s cancer and her death.  I’ve been such a schmuck for being so unavailable to my family.

But pro life doesn’t end here for me musically – far from it.  You’ll never guess!  The Montreal Symphony is hiring a new principal tuba and I’m just CRAZY enough to audition.  More on that in a new post soon.

My Mom Passed Away

I’ve been pretty quiet online here lately but my life has been nothing but in the past few months.

In mid-March, my mother was diagnosed with 4th-stage cancer.  They discovered this when discovering she had blood clots causing her right arm and hand to go blue (which was causing pain too).  On Friday, June 1st, at 10:17am, she lost her battle against the cancer.

I’ve had lots of time to think lately with drives to and from Ottawa.  I discovered that Mom had been my spiritual guide when I was a child and this shaped a lot of who I am today (I discovered Dad was a much larger influence that I realized too).  She taught me right from wrong and love from hate.  I will miss her with every part of my heart, mind and soul.

When it happens, I will dedicate my first orchestral performance of the Vaughan Williams to her.